there’s this constant dilemma of whether I should invest time in maintaining current friendships and gaining wisdom or devote more time to my studies.
cuz this trend seems to happen quite often? like usually around this time each semester I start to skip class LOL. it’s not bec I am not interested in academics but I am catching up with other work, doing assignments / projects and all.
and I’ve always asked myself why I need to skip class and other ppl don’t. does this mean that they are smarter than me? of course I’m also not that conscientious, for example I fell sick a while ago and since then it’s been a downhill trend for me HAHA. and I generally took CNY off to relax though I did study at night.
so perhaps I should be more conscientious in the sense that I should study every day. but then what about my friends? and myself? does uni semester mean mugging all the way? do the teachers expect us to sleep late during the semester? what are the standards?
but I guess I should give myself some credit for hanging on. I mean I honestly didn’t know that my uni course is hardcore. I thought it is just like other NUS courses LOL.
I was talking to Jiahui ytd about this after lecture and she also told me to ‘get a life’. hahaha. which I probably should? cuz my main purpose in life is not to get As, but to be a channel of God’s love, and to praise and glorify Him.
generally my close friends do know me as someone who likes to self-evaluate, but also gather opinions from others. so I told veggie to tell me my strengths and weaknesses cuz we haven’t played this ‘game’ in a long time teehee.
and here’s what he said (for strengths):
which made me realize. whatever he said is exactly who I want to be. and obviously I cannot be these things and continue to develop these qualities if I keep myself in studying mode all the time.
the only weakness he can think of is 思想顽固（对事物有感情）which I totally agree cuz I give sentimental value to so many objects and places teehee. :P
academics. what are they when u are not living out the life u want, being the person u want to be?
I’m going to continue to be myself and spend time with my loved ones.
and of course I won’t stop trying my best for studies, but if things fall below standard, u know what?
let’s just let it B.