otw to Vivo for a manicure and realized that I haven’t posted in a while so I’m going to talk about a topic that has been running through my mind recently.
met this guy recently who bears so much resemblance to fossil (especially his warm smile) then I realized it’s not really about fossil but it’s about how this guy just happens to be my type ^^
cuz I honestly also don’t know for sure if I have gotten over fossil (having seen another side of him a few months ago and decided that I no longer wanted to be in love with him anymore). but yet at the same time I feel myself becoming a teenage girl again and getting attracted to the guy I mentioned in my previous para.
however I am trying to suppress my feelings cuz I’ll be leaving Singapore for good in 3 years’ time, so there is not much point getting into a relationship now. might as well find someone in US when I go there. dun wanna complicate my life too much u know.
then again, it’s very hard to say cuz within these 3 years I might actually find someone who happens to also want to settle down in California in the future. we’ll see. HAHA
but I am totally prepared to just remain single for my entire life cuz I know I have very specific standards that are hard to find all in one person. and I do not wish to settle for less e.g. a non-Christian or a self-declared Christian who chooses to embrace sin. in fact, singlehood is a gift cuz it means that more focus can be put on my main priority (God) instead of my secondary priority (a romantic partner). but then again, sometimes a romantic partner can bring me even closer to God. so in this sense, romance is also a gift.
met up with veggie recently and did a 珊瑚海 cover which kickstarted a mini Instagram trend in which both the Bryce/Bryce and Joel/Lingyun couple decided to lie down on the floor and make a cover of that song as well (which brought much laughter to both veggie and I HAHA). but anyway the point is that when we were choosing where to sit I asked to sit at a bench-like thingy on which there were 3 couples. then veggie was like eee later they PDA let’s sit somewhere else (not exact words). but I said that I love the atmosphere with many couples cuz it gives me a nice feeling. like love is in the air u know. <3
I guess I just really like looking at other couples? I love rom coms and Asian romance dramas and stuff HAHA. I admit that I think my experience with fossil does feel like it came out of some kind of drama or romance novel ^^ HAHAHA but it could be just me being too biased LOL. maybe I feel that it is difficult for me to get into a relationship so existing couples kinda capture my attention? or maybe I actually want to be in a relationship so I will try to satisfy my inner desire to be in a relationship by looking at other couples?
anyway manicure was a bit disappointing. the colours I chose were not too bad (well cuz I chose them hahaha) but the job wasn’t well done? i still have some gel nail polish on my skin that idk how to remove. was thinking of just letting it sit so it can magically come off one day but I think I’m just going to end up Googling how to get it off haha. it’s probably not good for my skin man.
went to Starbucks to study. super love the fact that they have so many power sockets and there aren’t a lot of ppl who are using them. which is super cool. stayed there from 2-9pm and hardly rested except for a toilet break and a trip to the counter to get some pie to eat for dinner. as a result my dark eye rings are super serious right now. I look super pale and with my long hair and I think I look like a ghost. no wonder that girl sitting opposite me kept staring at me oops :P
eyes are super tired so I shall stop here since this is alr quite a lengthy post… hope to update again soon! ˆᴗˆ